i think i need a sunrise, i'm tired of the sunset

So I'm home alone and it's a very strange feeling...usually SOMEONE is here or at least one of my pets is around but I'm completely alone for once. I guess it's nice, especially after the day I've had. Not that it was completely terrible but I'm kinda into being alone right now. Alone here with music and coffee. Alright, so first things first...updates on life.

So what the fuck have I been doing the past few weeks. Hmmm...looks like the same old shit, unfortunately. I need to do a day by day thing to keep things a little more organized...

Monday 11/13 - Definitely overslept for volunteering and didn't go. I'm pretty sure this was a sad day...Lindsay didn't meet me in the library due to being pissed from Saturday night. I didn't know what to do so I just left and went to get a drink somewhere. I think I just drove around most likely crying since that's all I do these days. After school I probably did a little homework and then Vinny and I went out and I returned things to Chelsie and we gossiped. Then we went to visit Mon and Josh and if I remember correctly it was pretty hilarious...everything was funny. Hanging out with the bro was a good change I think.

Tuesday 11/14 - School was decent I guess...I think I tried to do my own thing but none of my plans ever work and I give in to everything. I worked with Mon and nothing of interest happened.

Wednesday 11/15 - Long day at school and apparently I had starvation? Not sure if I remember that or not. Also I'm sure Lindsay and I visited Mon and Briana at WM as usual since it's the Wednesday night routine now.

Thursday 11/16 - NOTHING.

Friday 11/17 - School shit, PAY DAY, closed WM alone without Mon for the first time in a loooooong time. Briana and I worked with the dumbass...what a queer homosexual. He gets on my last nerve...I just want to yell "GO AWAYYYYYY!!!!" to him, GOD.

Saturday 11/18 - Drumroll, please...I worked AGAIN, with Josh, Sue, and Eileen. At night I was lonesome so I ended up driving around by myself which I haven't done in a loooonnnngggg time. I almost died on an exit ramp (literally) and I think I went to B&N or something for coffee. What a life.

Sunday 11/19 - God damn work AGAIN...but it was with Phelps so it was fuuuun even though we were mad busy. After work I got ready to visit Jen up at Messiah. Her school is VERY nice...I'm impressed. I wish I could've met more of her friends but apparently a lot of them went home early for T-giving. Oh well...we had fun going to Starbucks and talking. Loooong drive home and I was bored and un-tired after coffee so I went to see Mon who was working with Trav. I think I scared both of them a little with the caffiene. Anyway, despite work Sunday was pretty damn good.

Monday 11/20 - Volunteering, school. Ooooh today was the day I ate at Quizno's for the first time ever in life. Not impressed...and I'm not saying Suckway is better per se, but I guess I'm just used to it? I don't even LIKE Subway and I never even ate there until I worked there. And I only go there when I'm not working for food becuase it's FREE, haha. But yeah Quizno's...not seeing the appeal there. Little Vin came for Thanksgiving week this night and Lindsay and I went out but I'm not sure where we went...we drove around twice last week and I can't really tell the two nights apart. I know for a FACT that we didn't go to WM.

Tuesday 11/21 - Rushed to school only to find out B. Sands decided after everyone was already there that we simply "weren't having class today". There wasn't really a good reason except that a FEW people didn't show up. Whatever...we were supposed to work on our papers. I'm real sure everyone ran back to their rooms and started doing research. Riiiight. So I think I did some research for the music project today, not like it mattered...we didn't even use the books haha. Ummm at night I worked with Mon and Briana and it was fuuuuun as usual. Love those girls.

Wednesday 11/22 - Last day of classes before T-giving. I went to my first class and then to the library to wait for Lindsay. We got food at Friendly's which I thought was crazy expensive for what we got...whatev. I WAS going to go to my other class but we got back like 15 minutes late and I didn't think anyone would go anyway (which I don't think they did based on what we did today in class) sooo yeah not regretting skipping that one. I think Wednesday night sucked. I came home and took a nap and didn't fully come back to consciousness until late at night. I probably watched a movie or something and then went back to sleep, haha. It's amazing how not having school makes me want to sleep and when I DO have school, it's the opposite. Oh and no night class this week for the same gay ass reason as B. Sands...to work on our papers. I don't even have to write the fucking paper due to the class being a bunch of dumbasses that failed all the tests causing him to curve everything. I have like a 105% in that class. Not bragging for reals.

Thursday 11/23 - T-GIVING!! Nothing too thrilling happened today...hung around the house with my parents and Vin. I think I actually played Monopoly with Vinny which was fun while it lasted. I suck so I lost right away. I never did learn how to play that game the right way. Uhhh at like 1 in the morning I was shocked and stunned about something and thinking back now it might be what's making me a cranky bitch.

Friday 11/24 - Blaaaack Friday...basically I woke up and felt miserable. Then I went to "work" with my allllll/most of my loves aka Monica, Lisa, Heather, and Briana. Fun times doing no work (no customers to wait on). Most of the time we sat around or roamed around the store doing nothing. I'm so glad I get paid for sitting around during the week since I work my ass off on the weekends (or so it seems). I only had to work until 8 and then I believe LMH and I went out driving around and talked about anything and everything. Good times...but facing reality sucks haha.

Saturday 11/25 - WORK with Josh, Eileen, and Briana. We were super busy, blahhh. After work I relaxed and then I had to go to the Berkshire Mall for gift wrapping which I thought would be rediculous but turned out to be incredibly slooooow. I worked with another lady and we just sat and read magazines and I stared at a lovely male working in the store acorss from us. I'm kinda excited to go back next week...haha.

Sunday 11/26 - WORK which sucked a lot. I was done an hour earlier than usual so that made it a litttttle better. After work I like died and fell asleep and felt sick all night :( Went to bed reeeeeallly early (for me).

Monday 11/27 - Today was an odd day I guess. Volunteering in the morning which was actually decent. I figured out I'm pretty much all caught up with my stuff for Service Scholars, yayyy. School was long and gay and blahhhh. And tonight was pretty bad. I hate life, period. For right now anyway.

I need a change and I'm hoping this semester being over will help..even though I'm not that stressed or anything. I'm surprise I've even stuck with my schoolwork for this long...usually I slack off about halfway through or earlier but I'm still doing pretty well, keeping up with the readings as best as I can, actually studying for tests, etc. I just have three papers, a test or two, and a few finals to go and I'm doooone. Then it's a whole lot of Suckway over break, blahhh.

Something is broken and I don't know what it is and I don't know how to fix it. The end.