now no one cares

What up bitches?? No more caffiene at midnight for me...I'm up at 3 in the morning for the millionth tme in the last couple of weeks, hence why I'm writing this (boredom).

Uhh last last Tuesday I had to work and it was retarded because I was in a bad mood due to (non)happenings of Monday night and the kid I worked with pretty much let all his stupid friends come in as we were closing and gave them free food, made a mess, and didn't do any fucking work. I hate high schoolers! On Wednesday I took my mom down to my sister's house since she begged me and it wasn't so bad actually. I got to see my sister and my nephews and it was slighty entertaining/horrifying to watch their behavior as a family. On my way home Kimberly Gilmore called me and we made plans to hang out later. We ended up going to gay Wal-Mart where we stole cookies and chatted with Monica, sang (both of us) and danced (just Kim), played with bean bags, took pictures, broke stuff (oopsss) and that's about it. Next we called Kim's friend who was working at a restaurant in Reading so we went to visit her. She basically works with about 10 cute/hot guys...not bad. We loitered a little until they kicked us out and then we stood in the parking lot FOREVER trying to decide what to do on a Wednesday night at 11pm when nothing is open. We almost got run over by the street cleaning truck thing...it was like thundering toward us. Anyway, we went to a diner and at some food and I made fun of the one and only waitress in the whole diner who was seriously rude. It was pretty fun to hang with Kim and we're definitely doing it again soon but with more direction.

On Thursday I had to work at Wal-Mart with Monica and Heather and it was probably a blast but I can't remember. It gets really late and we're all really tired so we just laugh and giggle at EVERYTHING. I'm pretty sure this is the night that something Monica said about me AVOIDING certain things made me realize that I do avoid things. I did some research (Psych haha) and discovered that I, along with Lindsay Herr, suffer from Avoidant Personality Disorder...or at least that we have that style personality. It basically means that you fear rejection and low self-esteem so instead of waiting around for people to reject you, assuming that they will (which someone with this disorder would since they don't have enough faith in themselves), you reject people when they try to get close to you first. The best part of the whole description of this disorder is the part about how these people "insult others that are seemingly nice and friendly to them so that if and when they are rejected by these other people they can just say "well i never liked them anyway"....uhhhhh this is sooo me and Lindsay it's not even funny. MOVING ON.

On Friday night I had to work again but it was with Ash and Brit who I love and miss dearly (!!!!) so it was alllllll cool. We had fun, I guess. Nothing spectacular. I think after work I went out with Lindsay and we just DROVE AROUND, blahhh. I don't even remember where we went. On Saturday morning I went out shopping and bought another Sex and the City DVD (only one more to go!), some clothes, and AFI's new CD, and then I had to go to my neighbor Mike's WEDDING.Wow is all I can say. YOU'RE EIGHTEEN AND NINETEEN, wtf?? I'm not criticizing anyone's choices butttttt...well I guess I am. Everyone say a prayer that it lasts because "I hate to say I told you so". Not that I ever told them so. Or that I'd hate saying that ;) The reception was interesting but boring since I don't dance. I got to chill with my lovely Zilling boys (who are now all incredibly tall). I definitely have to hang out with those boys over the summer. After the reception I had to go to WORK to "close" and it was lame because the stupid kiddies didn't do anything again. Lindsay met me there and we drove around again, SURPRISE. On Sunday I was supposed to work at WM at night but Phyllis tricked me into working at New Holland, that whore. She lied to me about where I was working and then changed locations, ahhhh. I ended up working with EJ (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) and the "annoying" girl who isn't really that annoying but is actually kinda nice I guess. I didn't talk much so EJ felt the need to place his lovely palm on my back and ask me if I was "having fun"...hhahahah. Umm at 1:59pm I suffered a minor heart attack when a certain someone arrived at NH to work as all. It was like one hour of heart failure and sooo awkward...BIG TIME. Like the beginning was fine...hi, how's it going, need me to do any work?, nah, ok, SILENCEEEEEEEE, seperation by a thousand feet for like 20 minutes, waiting on customers at seperate times, MAJOR AVOIDANCE by both parties. I almost CRIED while I was there. I had to like go in the back and BREATH so I wouldn't have an anxiety attack or cry (which is basically the same thing). So at like 2:58pm he decides to come to the back and chill and sit there with me and I attempted to start speaking. I thought we had a whole hour of time to chat away so I forced myself to make conversation. Here it is...get ready it's so important:

Me: At least we there is a radio here so we have something to listen to. (Earlier it was mentioned that working at WM is better)
Him: Yeahhh I guess. Or we could just listen to Miss Murder by AFI (Takes out some little electronic device that plays music (??), this is significant because I am currently obsessed with AFI so yeah I was like !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! when he said that).
Me: I just bought that CD yesterday! (I actually had)
Him: Are you serious??
Me: Yeah, it's really good.
Him: (Plays the song for like FOUR seconds)
And............IN WALKS ANOTHER WORKER WHO STARTS AT THREE THAT I DID NOT KNOW ABOUT :(((((((((

So basically our fabulous beginning-of-a-conversation was over in a matter of 2 minutes, blahhh. I left then too because there was no work to be done and I didn't exactly feel like sticking around. I got all my stuff and was about to leave but I forgot to do something so I quickly did it. Meanwhile some GIRL who he was apparently sending text message to walks in and they're all talking blah blah. So I get a drink and just leave figuring I'm not important enough to say goodbye to anyone there since they all hate me (plus I already said goodbye to the other girl in the back). So I'm like OUT THE DOOR and retard head is like "BYE JESS!!!!!" Cue loud music and crying as I drive home from work. The end.

Sunday was Father's Day if you didn't know so I took my father out to eat and then I think I drove around alone, blahh. Monday wasn't too bad. I volunteered in the morning and then came home and slept forever...yay. When I got up I had dinner and then I went "shopping" but it was late and everything was closed so I ended up at gay WM visiting Monica for her birthday. I brought her a lovely Frappucinoooo!! Umm a boy I hate was there...not really. Oh and apprently everyone thinks I hate them?????? I heard it at least 4 or 5 times last week and I don't understand it. I'm not THAT mean. Anyway, me and the boy that I hate were extremely and weirdly "friendly" to each other and it was just weird. I even got weird looks from Monica. Ummm this also makes me wonder about other boy situations and make me compare...hmmm. I won't get into that though. But it was a fun night and I got to see my "Dad" and Dawson as well for some shopping.

Yesterday was Tuuuuessssday and I had to drive down to West Chester super early to babysit my cousins. It wasn't too bad actually and they're really cute, awww. After that I went shopping and I bought SEVEN shirts and TWO pairs of jeans, yessss. Then I went straight to work for annoyingness and doing ALL the work, blahh. Monica told someone that I like him (so he knows for sure) and for some reason I kinda feel more relieved now. I'm not sure why though because I'll probably be more nervous than ever the next time I see him (depending on how he acts). Apparently his reaction was quite normal and he smiled and said that he "had a feeling"...DUH. Anyway, I think Lindsay and I drove around AGAIN, shockerrr. Today I slept/helped my mom clean out my closet (literally not figuratively) and then I picked up Lindsay and met up with Erin and her family to go to H-burg to see watch a baseball game. All I can say is HILARIOUS and I mean the crowd, not the game, ha. We saw many things that I will list now: Giant dogs and red blood cell mascots (??), a cowboy with a neon shirt and tight jeans and boots and a hat, gay people, little kids that were pregnant and eating pounds of food, hot orange shirt boys/men that worked there, baseball players bending over/stretching, lots of signs about watching out for balls, BUGS, the sun shining right in our faces causes extreme humidity, a CB lookalike that might have been a girl, a guy that looked like a mixture of NZ/AY/my bro/TM/about 70 other people, 10 year old skanks, more lookalikes, too tired to finish the super long list. We also had some special company aka these two guys who slowly got drunk and slowly became more friendly to us. They decided to sit RIGHT behind us and then when we left for drinks and came back they were right in front of us. We started off calling the one guy FOB due to his pathetic wearing of a Fall Out Boy t-shirt (he was like 27-ish). Somehow as their intoxication became more apparent and a million bugs landing all over everyone, they started talking to us kinda and being gay (OH and eavesdropping in the middle of their conversations) and freaking over bugs, and drinking more and more and more beer, and tons of other funny things. I tried to get their attention by blowing bubbles with my leftover wedding bubbles and it actually worked haha. They made fun of people as well. Uhhh yeah I'm done talking about the game. Oh and if you wanted to know the score was 4-4 and they played against Altoona. Ummmmmmmm yeah.

After the game we went to Giant to get some bevs (beverages for short) and then got bored and decided to play at the Reamstown playground at midnight. We also had a long and interesting conversation about travel and real estate hahahaha. I lover Errrnnnnn and LMH, yay!

Ummm the rest of the week looks good...tomorrow is nada then training a dumb boy that hopefully doesn't annoy me. Friday (best day ever) is Cold Stone (hopefully) then Philly with Mon and Lindsay and my bro!!!! Funnnnnnn, I can't wait for real. Saturday is nada then more work. Sunday is MORE work and then probably hanging out with Sam. I'm like dead tired now so BYE.