the easiest things are so hard

Hi, I'm back. It's been almost one month since I've updated this and everyone knows what that means...the longest post on earth. I apologize for any brain cells you lose reading this. I guess I'll try to do a day to day thing but I know for a fact I won't remember every single day in November.

So, the last day I wrote was the 16th which means I guess I'll start on the 17th. I dunno what I'm doing...it's been that long. I think the next day was just work. Oh and it was Mel's birthday...HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!! I worked at Wal-Mart and I'm sure it was just awesome. Friday was school and no media class, yessss. I went home and got all ready to go to Philly with my seminar class. I sat with the weirdo girl and wow, she really is weird. One cool thing was that we discovered we have the exact same birthday. When we got to Philly our class was special and got to go to another museum of an artist who is my philosophy teacher's absolute favorite. It was all sculptures and they were naked, haha. He asked me, of course, what I saw in the art and I said they were a little weird and he's all like "NO NO they're not weird...you know what I see?? I see PASSION!" Gotta love that guy. Next we walked back in the frigid November weather and got to walk up the steps like Rocky. Did I ever mention how much I fucking love the art museum?? Even though it was only my second time going I had a really good time. I kinda stuck with two girls in my class and didn't talk of course. They made fun of the know-it-all girl and I almost said something about her, but then I figured I'd look like a total bitch.Anyway, one good part of seeing the art is that my philosophy teacher knows all about each piece of artwork and he told us all the history and everything. It was so much better than just looking at the art having no clue what it is. I GOT TO SEE THE AWESOME ROOM WITH THE SCRIBBLES. I told my philosophy teacher that I really liked it and he told me that it's all about mythology and Homer and all that stuff. COOL. After we left the art museum and headed back to school on the bus where we ate sucky sandwiches. My teacher talked to me some more and I wish I wasn't such an idiot about talking because I always say the wrong thing, haha.

Next I got back home and Lindsay wasn't finished work yet so I hung out with Ash and Dar at Suckway until she called me. We picked up Monica and traveled to Lancaster (listening to Disturbed and going the long way through the woods) to the movies to see HARRY POTTER at like 10:30pm. Um, that move is amazing. I want to buy them all. I love Ron. We love Ron. Ron Weasly for life? I don't know, I should start a group. RED HAIR ahhhhhh. The movie was intense...like I experienced every emotion haha. I laughed, I felt scared, and I almost cried! Fantastic job, pat on the back to whoever makes these things for my viewing pleasure. After the movie, around 2am on the way to take Monica home we just couldn't resist stopping at WM so Lindsay could buy a beverage. All I remember is that i was really tired and I couldn't stop laughing at a can of mixed nuts.

The next morning I woke up bright and early and went to help out at Alvernia's open house...they didn't even need me so basically I stood around like an idiot. I did talk to the horse girl and I was shocked I actually said hi to her first. Lindsay was coming with her padres to check out AC so when they got there I just walked around with them. HAHA I took the tour of the school with fabulous GREG and GRANT as our tour guides. Oh how we love them. NICK was there as well and now Lindsay is in love. After it was over Lindsay's parents took us to lunch and then I went home and did nothing I think. Ohhhh Sunday was an awesome day too. I worked in the day at WM alone with the newly discovered dickhead Andrew. God I hate him. Later in the evening my father took me to WM and I tried to get ahold of Lindsay but she wasn't home yet. I saw ugly blonde haired fluff heads and other cool Cocalico graduates with black hats. Lindsay called me and my dad dropped me off at her house and we went BACK to WM and spent a looooong time chatting and goofing around with Monica and Jesse. Awww Jesse...he's a dickhead too even though we were almost friends. We searched through his wallet and I found a picture of his apparently ugly girlfriend and his driver's license. We laughed a lot and it was fuuuuun. So we finally left at 10:30ish and we're leaving and I look down the main aisle and I see this guy and I'm like "OMG that looks like STEVE!!' and Lindsay's like "Yeah it does...I think it's him!!" So it was Steve and he saw us and pointed and waved or whatever. He was all dressed up in his hot Sears clothes, haha. FLOOD PANTS. So we left with him kinda and I saw what he drives...some POS old maroon car. So "STEVE-like". We followed him for like a minute and then he turned. BYE STEVE!! What are the odds, really...

Monday night we went to WM yet again. It's not my fault I swear...my pictures weren't ready. I'm sure we saw cool people at Suckway and elsewhere. OH we saw Amber and we talked to her for awhile as Coffee Guy now named Chester (for real) stared at us and smiled excessively. Wait maybe this happened on Sunday night...i really don't remember. I think it did but who cares. School. School. OHHHH it was Thanksgiving week and Kim, Smann, and Mandy were home so me and Rachie met up with them at DD for some brunch or whatev. After Mandy left we went back to Kim's and goofed around and took pictures (a first) and then Smann, Rachel, and I went to Rachel's house and had pizza and cream puffs (which we helped make) and talked about all the exciting things happening in life. I'm not gonna lie, Smann's boyfriend is pretty damn hot and I wanna meet him!!

On Thanksgiving we went to my sister's and it really was fun. I love when they act normal. Olivia and me are best friends for life, as well as her and my dad. Rick cooked an excellent meal...stuffinggggg. Umm Vinny came home with us and annoyed and wouldn't let me sleep til like 3am. I finally put on plastic surgery and he went to bed because it grossed him out, hahahaha. On Friday Lindsay and I were supposed to go and spend the whole entire day in Phillayyy but as usual she got stuck at work and we didn't leave til like 3 or 4. It took a little longer than usual get there due to some ummm detours?? Awwww!! Umm we got lost for 5 seconds then wound up in Exton. We finally got to Philly and went to South Street but it was INSANE and there were absolutely no parking spaces. We wound up driving around Center City and Market Street until we decided to park in a lot and walk around since there are a lot of shops and stuff there. We went in an amazing Borders that was like 5 floors and I bought this cute blue agenda. We also went into a better Tower than the one SS and saw a Gaz lookalike, ahhhh he was hot and had a DEEEEEP voice. Next we walked around looking for a place to get coffee and food. We saw loads of BOYS, awwwww, and gangsters, yo. I LOVE PHILLY!! Next we drove over towards the art museum since I can't stay away now listening to newly purchased Depeche Mode and Nirvana. We parked in the museum lot and got out to take a short walk. Lindsay took gay pictures of the sides of the building and the Christmas tree and stuff. We stood on Rocky's footprints and took hot pictures of us with the parkway in the background. I'm sure none of them will come out since we have bad aim, hahahaha. After that we tried to get home but of course Jess got lost and we ended up in fucking GERMANTOWN aka the ghettoville of Fairmount Park. Lindsay spilled hot chocolate on her crotch and I'm sorry but it was the funniest thing ever. She hated me for the rest of the night. We finally found the expressway at like 1am and I drove home half sleeping and almost crashing into the cement barrier in the middle of the turnpike. THE END.

Saturday and Sunday = work at the big WM. The next week was THE LAST WEEK OF CLASSES (not including finals). On Tuesday my hairdresser convinced me to let her dye my hair. She's gonna darken it with this awesome shade of blackish/purpleish/reddish ahhh it's soo cool. I also went to Park Shitty with Monica and I bought a hot black and green scarf and she got a bag. The mall was crawling with boysss every which way. After we left the mall we searched for food in the pouring rain and finally went to Friendly's where the one guy stared us the entire time. Aww I made a new friend...Monica is cool. So I finally got to go back to youth group and realized I didn't miss it at all. In the evening Lindsay and I went to Alvernia for some dumb concert in hopes to see some certain boys such as BN or jolly old St. Nick. We saw Nick's skinny body sitting like 4 feet ahead of us with the horse girl and all their friends. STACY SEARS stared at us. God what a bitch, haha I don't even know her. The band was actually not bad...just corny. The singer was like Danny G'd lookalike with darker hair, a buffer body (on top only...the bottom was like a girl), and small small small hands strumming a guitar. Also included was the Jolly Green Giant/Greg/Derek Pizzo. Aww Alvernia, how cute. NO BN!!! Cry. Speaking of, I saw a certain landmark from a certain picture on a certain website and we just had to drive by to see it again, aww. All week I was having some kind of pain on the bottom of my spine and by Thursday it was unbearable. I went to the doctor's and it was a CYST, ew ew ew ewwwwew ew gag. I had to get it...ew I won't say but the doctor had to slice me open with a scalpel ow owowow. It hurt sooo bad that night and I had to drive myself to get my meds. Worst experience ever. Friday I didn't even go to work and I slept ALL NIGHT LONG. I was so pissed because Smann called me to go see the play at CHS with her and the new bf and I was like dead to the world and didn't hear my phone!!!!!! I couldn't met hot Eric!! Awww, there will be other opportunities I guess. On Saturday I went to the doctor's and then to Reading to help with a book fair at a school I couldn't find. Then I went to my uncle's house with my mom for a little party. We had fun watching those corny Christmas movies with Rudolph...HAHAHAHA my family is nuts. Sunday = more work in pain, ouch.

Oh wow I'm almost caught up!! So this past week was finals which meant I only had to go to school Thursday and Friday. On Monday AND Tuesday Lindsay and I went to the uh...library at Alvernia to study hahahahaha. Um yeah we saw no one cool. I worked during the week too and went to the dumb book fair but it was cancelled. WE SAW GREG GOING TO REDNER'S in his red jeep haha. On Wednesday I went to the book fair and it was actually happening. I had fun watching all the little kids get their books and talking to the moms about good books and stuff. The Chronicles of Narnia must be read and seen by me or I'll die. I didn't do homework even though I had LOADS to do. Basically four papers. I went to youth group and then went home and finally STARTED writing the papers at 2am. I didn't sleep at all, God I'm an idiot. Thursday was like death...I couldn't even stay awake to drive to school. I had one final which was super easy. I turned in some final papers and then I went home and slept probably. Work at WM in which I slacked off majorly, copying what everyone else does when they leave at 9 instead of 11. I did NADA and I acted like I was pissed so Josh and Andrew gave me a lot of space. THANK GOD. Awww I'm sure there were more and more cute boys at WM.

OH OH OH on Wednesday night due to lack of sleep I made a strange decision and decided to let Lindsay send a message to BN for me on his little thing and OMG on Thursday he wrote back!! Awww how sweet...big words too, how smart. So I wrote back again and gave him my screen name. Wow what a rebel I am. Friday was lots and lots of SNOW and I had to go to school at 8am for my last final ever...precalc. I may just get a B in the class, yesss. That night I worked with BB and Ash and we were DEAD so I got to leave early. Ew some sickn ugly fucking loser with a curly ponytail dripping grease used the potty and stunk it up apparently. Brittany also sang a special version of the 12 Days of Christmas for us entitled "The 12 STDs of Christmas" including our favorite HPV. We're nuts. Saturday was more work til 11. I came home and took a shower and stuff to get ready for Sunday (Disturbed). I was finally about to go to bed at 1:30 BUT there was a message from an unknown sender...BN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh my word I talked to him and it was the best omg ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! He is like the nicest person ever and I'm dead serious we have a lot in common. He talks more than me which is a hard find, haha. Ahhh I was so excited. I'll leave it at that for now...there is more coming later.

On Sunday I got up and got ready to go to AC (not Alvernia College, but Atlantic City). I wanted to go to Target to buy these awesome gloves that match my awesome scarf but they were all out. Target was CRAZY like I couldn't even walk through the store without crashing into 60 people at once. Then I went to B&N to buy some books that I wanted to get. Then I came home and read and took a short nap (literally like 5 minutes) until Lindsay called. We left at like 4 for AC and the traffic was great and we didn't get stuck once. Smooth ride the whole way. I talked to my bro and the baby, awww I love them! Vinny might come this weekend depending on my work hours (which turned out to be the entire weekend). It was really easy to get there and we had fun in the parking lot with all the crazy Disturbed fans everywhere, Lindsay having a diabetic seizure, and trying to figure out a way to remember where we parked (5d = 5 dildos and 3f = 3 fuckers...good strategy). We ventured into the actual casino, unsure of where to go and amazed at all the old people with walkers everywhere. We fund the House of Blues area and got in line with all the scary Disturbed folks. Lots of tall people, say like 6'2 hahhahahahahaha. After waiting in line for like 20 minutes we get the bright idea that maybe we're in the wrong line so we ask the guy and it turns out we have to go back down to get our tickets. Sold out show by the way. So then we got the tickets and got food or starving retard since we didn't mind missing the opening bands. We ate expensive food that we didn't even eat at all and then headed back up. That place is pretty cool. There were men everywhere and lots and lots of alcohol being consumed by the men, haha. We attempted to be on the left for a change and instead ended up in the middle somewhere wedged between curly haired tall women in front of us, baldie and his short gf on the right, JW's Daddy lookalike on the left STARING, drunken idiots splatting beer on us behind us, and Danny G lookalke with huge teeth kinda on the right and in front of us STARING every goddamn second. The one band sucked ass big time...they were boring like...ew boring gay retarded. In between the sets there was this freakshow guy who did all these nasty tricks with hooks up his nose and out his mouth and getting darts thrown at his back and heart, and pulling condoms through nostrils. It was some "pretty fucked up shit" as he said. I can't begin to tell you how many times the guys behind us tried to start a chant. I felt like I was at a Cocalico football game with the "superfans". When the sideshow guy said he was gonna do "some fucked up shit" they were like "FUCKED UP SHIT! FUCKED UP SHIT!" and then "DIS-TURBED! DIS-TURBED!". Ughhhh annoying crushing cans and kicking them at our feet.

Ok so the show right...Disturbed came on and I've never seen anything like it before in my life. Every single person in the crowd knew every word and they all sang along at the top of their lungs and it was kind of amazing. The whole floor felt like it was going up and down and ahhh the whole feeling was just good. It was awesome to see that kind of "devotion" haha. I'm not a huge fan of Disturbed, but I'm not gonna lie...it was like the best one we've been to so far as far as "atmosphere". At the very end while the guys behind us were shouting "WE WANT THE FUCKING SICKNESS" (idiots GOD) they finally played that song and the idiots started pushing and dancing and being crazy and Linsay and I got smashed against the curly head ladies and all the others previously mentioned. Somewhere along the way someone's MOUTH hit my cheek, EW EW EWEEEEWEWWWWWEEEEWEW. We were like a part of the mosh pit for at least 4 seconds, haha. Drunk people are kind of hilarious. So after the fear of dying went away we were all like AGAIN AGAIN! but it was over, tear tear. My pants were literally drenched in beer on the bottoms. SICK SICK. We got Lindsay's jacket and my camera from the coat checker people and I said bye to everyong and told them I loved them. HAHA I really did. Ummm definitely a memorable night in the life of myself. We couldn't find the goddamn car in the garage and we had an interesting elevator ride with weird people. OHHH hot boys in the parking lot that I pointed at and they saw me and stopped their car and asked us where we were from and if we wanted a ride there, AHAHAH DRUNKS. We escaped the garage and exited AC, stopping in a shitty Wawa in Philly to get late night food. I didn't fall asleep on the ride home this time! OMG I wanna go back to another one there (oh wait I am...hahahaha). I'll probably never forget that whole experience.

Today = sleep, doctors for the LAST time (I think eight was enough), home, nap, WM for my mommy, and then I chatted with BN aka "Mike" again for like ever. Um I may have made some plans with him perhaps. You read that right. Yeah I'm scared, ok enough of that. We'll see what happens. Now that I'm done with this shit I have to get sleeeeeep because in less than 7 hours myself, my padre, and LMH will be on our little ways to my favorite place, yay yay yay yay. Pretty much life is FABULOUS!!!!!!!! I don't think I even put it into words. I need sleep now so I'll try to write on Wednesday, that is if I'm not BUSY OMG.