i'll stare straight into the sun

Yesterday was fun I guess. I had to go over to my neighbor's graduation party to at least make an appearance. Very uncomfortable...I'm glad I only had to stay for a few minutes. Then Lindsay picked me up and we made our way to Chelsie's house for her graduation party. On the way we saw the ugly brothers and also Fluffer at TH...they all stared. Chelsie's was fun. We got attacked by bugs so we spent most of our time inside eating cake and listening to smooth jazz. We also got to play with all her little pets like the cute kitten and we also played the Sims...it was good for a few laughs.

Somehow Becca is friends with "John" and he called and told her there was some party somewhere. Becca told him that we were all going (ok...) so we all drove over to his house in Lindsay's car. Lindsay had a heart attack and almost cried, I'm pretty sure Chelsie wasn't actually planning on going to a keg party, and I don't know even know JW so we all just stayed in the car and dumped Becca off. I felt pretty bad leaving her there alone with a non-clothed, peace sign-giving freak but it was like physically impossible for Lindsay to be normal so we had to leave.

After that I had to go home because my mom's retarded. So I go over to my neighbor's and I have to hear all about how my mom met this one kid and how he wanted to know where I was. Yeah, so he could leave as fast as possible. Whatever. I'm sure all of him and his little friends got a good laugh about that one. I'm so glad that I can provide entertainment for them. I'm just a joke. I HATE that kid, I really do. I am so glad I wasn't at the house when he was.

So then I get the bright idea to go to Wal-Mart but only realize the loser kid mentioned above works there after we get there. Grrrrreat. Chelsie bought a phone and that's good for her but other than that Wal-Mart sucked. We went back to Hoehn's to activate her phone and then I went back to my neighbor's because my mom was still there. Once again I had to hear the story of that kid, wonderfullllllllll. Then I had to hear about how this other girl was sad that she didn't get to talk to me and how she told my mom and Patty that she talks to me at school all the time. YEAH RIGHT. Whatever, I find it funny how they all want to talk to me so bad. Ahhhh ok, I don't know what else to say about that.

I'm seriously starting to think that nothing good ever happens to me. After being made fun of (even if it's only in a teasing way) I've realized that everybody is right...I'm like retarded and everything bad always happens to me. Why? Yesterday was especially bad. I feel left out even though I'm not. I don't know. Now today I wake up and the first thing I have to hear is more bad news about my sister and I hate it. Why can't they just be NORMAL. And I have nothing to do today except sit around and think about all this stuff. I'm definitely gonna die so if anybody wants go somewhere, anywhere call me. Otherwise I'm going out alone and driving really far away because I can't stand sitting here doing nothing and I don't want to hear my mom bitch and complain about my sister. Seriously...i'm not even allowed to answer the phone if she calls. What kind of family are we?

I'm done ranting. Bye.