make me not so crazy

It has been a long fucking time. I'm gonna try to remember everything that has happened but I know for sure that all the hilarious details won't be included. I'll try my best though.

So last last last Friday I had school and then I met up with Mom (Monica), Dad (David), and my best bud Dawson. We couldn't decide what to do as usual because for some reason myself and everyone that surrounds me is 100% indecisive ALL THE TIME. We decided to try the bowling thing with Dawson aka Little D and it was definitely weird. He's only two so it was kinda hard for him to actually understand the whole bowling concept and stuff...Monica and Dave were kinda fighting about it and there was a lot of tension and I felt a little weird being there. Next we went to get food and I was verbally molested by Dave, ew. Umm then he dropped me and Monica off and I took her to TH to visit Chelsooo and then we went to my house to view some photographs of a few different boys that she's heard a lot about but never actually saw. Umm we went BACK to WM again and I bought the 4th season of Sex and the City!!! Ahhh it's like my favorite show on earth now and I want all the seasons, buy them for me.

On Sataaaday I had to work at WM and I ended up being Monica-less and working with Heather and Brandon. After Heather left at 9pm there were many visitors though, including Monica, Dave/Dad, Dawwwwson (awww!), Lindsay, Daria, and Brittany. Lindsay stayed until closing and then her and I decided to take a trip to the special Wawa that we go to every single day and get coffee and candy, yay! Umm we drove around in the general area of 724/Pottstown (hahahaha perhaps being magnetically drawn to Donald Duck?). We has serious conversation again as usual talking about people's relationships and blah blah. Right in the middle of an important statement about one relationshipn inparticular, as if it was a sign from God, I KILLED A CAT!!!! First Lindsay and I cried and then we laughed REALLY HARD. I guess there was nothing I could do about it...the stupid kitty just sat there and I didn't technically run it over, I just kinda "clipped" it, heheheeee.

On Sunday I had to work and then Vinny and Andrew's ex-foster parents (if that's even a real term) came over for Vinny's birthday and brought pizza!! Me and Vin just chilled and took some gangster pics on my phone which I should really post on here because it's cute. Andrew was practically vomiting so they left a little early. Bye. Sunday night after they left was pretty bad...for some reason I become depressed at night. So yeah that's what that whole last post was about. Re-reading it now it's probably the most retarded thing I've ever written even though it is completely honest. Whatever...I'm over it. BUT it did make the rest of the week tough tough tough.

Lindsay and I declared Monday, February 27th (aww Vin's actual b-day) THE WORST DAY EVER. We barely spoke to each other all day and it pretty much sucked. We had a fucking quiz in Theology aka the gayest fucking class ever. I didn't talk ALL DAY. To anyone. No one. AT ALL. That's not normal for me. Ummm after "school" aka "death" Lindsay and I silenty parted ways and I went to work for ONE hour at Denver to "supervise" stupid new boys that are lazy bums and do no work whatsoever. Then I visited El Monica at WM. God, I'm there every single day.

Tuesday was school and it was pretty good actually despite the fact that I was alone all day and it was raining. I got some fabulous Wawa coffee and drove around during my break. Everything was just fab but then my dad called my cell phone while I was on my way to work to say my mom was in the hospital. That was a bit of a downer...yeahhhhh. Umm work probably SUCKED majorly.

On Wednesday morning I was like two minutes late to Psychology so I skipped that class since we're learning stuff I already know and met up with Lindsay in the library...about 10 feet away from Donald Duck (!!!) wearing GREEN (him, not me). We chatted briefly about the worst day ever and how we needed a break so we decided to skip EVERYTHING. Shakespeare is a gay class in which we probably just took notes or some shit although I was a little sad to be missing Donald Duck's greenness and Theology...there are no words to explain why we skipped that. We went to KOP and then to Exton and it was kind of amazing overall. I definitely needed a day off from school. Lindsay and I also listened to the best music ever and had a lesson about Valley Forge, hahahahaha what a blonde head. When we got back we went to visit my mommy at the hospital and watched Jeopardy with her. I knew the answers to the Philosophy questions!!!! Home, bed, sleep, etc.

Thursday was probably similar to Tuesday with coffee and driving and rain. I worked in the evening, probably with my new best friend for life Ashley P. We probably spied on James as usual. On Friiiiiday I had school in the AM and then later on I picked up Monica and we traveled all the way to the Lehigh Valley Mall in the greater Allentown/Bethlehem area. Saw some hot boys, hahahahahaaaaa. Even funnier is that I practically ran over a curb and some grass trying to get out of the parking lot. It's amazing how much fun a mall can be when it's not the same one you go to ALL THE TIME. We had a fabulous time shopping even though no one bought anything (except food). Ummmm even though the night was fun there was some sort of weird feeling I was having and I found out why the next day...

SOMEONE BROKE INTO SUBWAY!!!!!!!!! Ahhh I was so freaked. I went in ALONE at my normal time aka like 8:45 in the morning and noticed the store next to ours was being boarded up because their door was smashed (with a rock). I didn't really think much of it until I walked in and as I was relocking the door I noticed one of our soda heads at my feet (not where it should've been). I turned around to find a lot of things turned over and spilled and thrown around on the floor. And this was just in the front. I went into the back and saw money (aka a roll of pennies strategically scattered) on the floor with juice poured on them and the key to the register gone. I turned the corner into the very back and saw all the food out on the table rotting away (ew) and I didn't even go any furthur than that except I did peek into the back and saw the desk drawers dumped and shit EVERYWHERE. I was so fucking scared someone was still in there and was gonna murder me that I booked. I called my mommy and I think I actually hyperventilated for the first time in my life. I'm serious. Ummm she called the police I think?? I can't even remember I was so shaken up about it. Ummm I didn't know how to contact our owner so I went to WM to talk to see if he was there which he wasn't. I cried a lot and probably looked like a loserrrrrr. I don't care, I was upset and it was like the perfect ending to the most stressful week ever. Whatever. Sooo um I was summoned back to Denver by our owner and Brittany and we had a fabulous day in which I was Peter C. Bond's fucking slave driving all around to stores buying him shit and going to WM to pick up bread. UGHHHH as if I'm not poor enough I had to waste my gas to buy a scrub brush. Ahhhhhhhh I was so stressed...I broke down crying in front of everyone (Brit, Peter, Greg, Grace, Phyllis, and customers). That's when you know I'm having a bad day/week/life...when I cry in front of more than one person (myself haha).

After work the night turned completey the other way and I had fun fun fun with my best bud HO!! Awww Hoehn...she's a funny kid. I think we stalked some boys and then we went to Exton and had a fabulous combination of Cosi and Starbucks, yummm. Umm we listened to great 80s music and danced and stuff like that. Somehow we wound up 9 miles from ALLENTOWN. Ummm yeah I'm not even sure how that happened but whatever...it was an adventure. We were on some scary ass back roads with creepy trees that were going to attack us. Next we were in Kutztown...boy do we get around. We purchased bottled water aloneside drunks and then headed home with Ho driving my car...scary. Funfunfunfunfunfunfun night, I love my Hoooo! On Sunday I had to open at Denver AGAIN but Brit came and helped and we did fine. After that I went to guess where...WM, to stay with Monica since she was "alone". Turns out Dave and Dawson were there, but whatever. The worse week ever is done.

This past week sucked due to lots of WORK but was very interesting in other ways. Ummm Monday was school (Theology TEST that I most likely failed) and then work right after. I love Ashley P and Monica!! Tuesday was also school and then right to work, fun fun. Tuesday night with Monica and Brandon...ummm certainly interesting overall. Interesting as in good. Wednesday was school (Shakespeare test in which my hand fell off due to extreme amounts of writing) and then WORK again for gay Josh so he can go and "suck face" as Monica and Dave would say. Ummmm more time with Ashley P...good times playing floor hockey with brooms and cups of cheese! UGHHHH Thursday was more work...I went home and slept and I ended up being FORTY minutes late. HAHAHAHA is all I can say.

FINALLY on Friday I was off. It was the last day of school before spring break aka the most boring week of my life. My psych teacher let us out early so I called LMH and went to her house to make some plans for the evening. We both got some dinero from paychecks and attempted to go to IKEA but we couldn't find it. Instead we ended up going to some random shopping center and going to B&N and Petsmart (hahahaha). We saw some hot fish and cats and dogs and boys probably. We also read a book for little kids about sex and it had a picture of Lindsay and JW in it, AHAHAHAHAHAHAH. We cried laughing in B&N over it. After that we went to my house to pick up my car and somehow we ended up at Wal-Mart due to a need for broccoli cheese soup, yay. Ummm I did NOT want to go to Subway but I was forced. At the time I was glad I went but now I'm not so glad due to happenings of Saturday and today but I'll get to that later. Umm we ate soup, Lindsay made me suffer as she ate a thousand meatballs and burned her mouth a lot. Next we drove alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll the way to Bethlehem and roamed around looking for houses. Ummm my fucking gas thing is GAY and RETARDED and I want to kill it. I really am fulfilling my role as a "moody" person...I get so pissed at EVERYTHING a lot now. Some would say I am "bitter" HAHA.

Saturday morning I hung out with Jen and we kidnapped Sarah. We went to the mall and I bought a million dollars worth of shit. Lots of EARRINGS, yay. I also bought a famous pin with the best quote ever as well as a "hardcore" magazine, haaaaaaaa. Jen and I also ate a shitload of food and I felt like puking forever but it was good. Work at night started off fabulous but then as usual, I lived up to my "moody" title and got so fucking PISSED the fuck off. UGHHHH I hate immature loser high school people. ESPECIALLY ugly blonde boys who think they are sooooo FUNNY and COOL and HOT and SMART. Ew ew ew ew. I hate that kid with a passion. I hate no one as much as I hate him right now in life. He is so FAKE...even if it is intentional. I hate fake people, die die die. There is also the whole debate over this one thing that happened and it's either me being paranoid or it's real. If it is real...which I'm starting to think it is then I like that person EVEN MORE for not being a dumb dickhead like others. Those people make me feel like I'm really stupid and a loser I HATE IT. While others are mature and normal about it, which I respect. I guess we shall see what happens right??

Sunday I worked in the day again, ew ew ew. I did NOTHING last night it sucked so I had to go and rent movies alone like the loser I am. Lindsay and I had another serious IM conversation for like 4 hours and I learned a lot of new definitions for words...my vocabulary is expanding with every passing day hahaha. Today was lots of catching up on sleep. I found out Mr. Hummel passed away and it hasn't really hit me yet but when it does it'll be extremely sad. Going to the funeral or services or whatever they have will be VERY tough but at least I'll have my Rachie and Jen with me. I'll probably cry since everything makes me cry these days and this is actually something worth crying over. Awww Hums...we'll miss ya. Cocalico won't be the same. I also worked today and it was gay and meaningless. After work Jen and I traveled to TH and then WM and at WM I learned some new things that make me even more confused about that whole thing. And NO I am NOT worrying about that at all. I am just talking about it a lot because I have nothing else to talk about since my life is boring and everyone else has one they talk about. Get it? Good.

Tomorrow will probably turn out to be a good day. Ho is coming at like 9am and we're going to Phillayyyyy I believe. I'm driving of course, ughhhhh. It'll be fun though. After that I have to go to work which is what I'm fearing most. Not so much going there...but just what will happen and if I'll be able to act non retarded. I guess we shall see.

This is super long, hope you had a blast reading it. Some final comments that I've been thinking about I guess...

It is soooo weird and amazing how much things can CHANGE. Everything I know has changed from the way it was a year ago and even from a week or two ago. I'm in COLLEGE now, high school is soooo far away and I don't even care anymore. Going back to visit made me realize that I need to love what is happening to me RIGHT NOW and stop thinking about stuff in the past. Speaking of high school, Mr. Hummel is gone when one year ago he was calling my house bugging me to turn in papers for FBLA, awww haha. My friends are certainly different than last year and a lot of things have changed in their lives that have affected me too in a way. And I have changed a lot too...even in the past few weeks. A few weeks ago and actually for the past couple of weeks I was CRYING over stupid stuff that isn't even worth it. I think I'm back to normal and liking (perhaps A LOT) everything the way it is. It's just so strange how a year ago I never ever EVER thought any of the stuff that has happened in the past 6 months would ever happen. It blows my mind, for real. I like not knowing what to expect a year from NOW. A lot of stuff can happen in a year, that's all I can say. The end.

P.S. Things to look forward to include road trip to KU for Smann's concert, concerts, SPRING, the second best vacation ever (Chicago was till pretty damn good) which would be May 5th-7th with one of my bestest friends spent in NJ/NY!!!!!!! Ahhh excitement.

P.P.S. I don't hate anyone/everyone even though I've been acting like I do lately. I'm adjusting. Thanks bye.