sweet heart attack

Hellooooo.

So um Sunday night I didn't sleep at all...up all night doing my essay. School was just fabulous...my head felt funny all day and all I wanted to do when I came home was SLEEP. So I'm taking a nap and my phone rings and it is my dear friend Ho calling to visit with me. I am not even gonna go into the sad little details but basically the rest of the night was pretty much horrible for everyone. I can't even describe...I don't know. Work was annoying, blah blah blah. By the end of the night which was like 4 AM I thought things were somewhat okay with some things but apparently not. Oh I don't even know.

Yesterday was more school and then I met up with Rachel for lunch yay. It was cool. Omg Rachel's school has BOYS and mine doesn't and I'm so jealous. Ohhh ew ew ew the Starbucks guy goes there, I saw himmmm. Sickness. Okkkk so after all that funness I came home and slept for a much needed FIVE HOURS. Definitely would've died if I didn't get that. More drama yesterday...I am so confused and I feel so bad and grrrrr I AM TORN about what to do/say/think/feel. After last night, I could NOT get to sleep. I want be like I AM SICK OF BEING IN THE MIDDLE OF EVERYTHING and I was gonna back off from the whole thing for a little but then I get messagessssss and I don't know what they mean and nobody ever answers their god damn phone so I don't know what the hell to think about that. Someone please tell me.

Today was my last day of school for the week since we have vacation on tomorrow and Friday. During my break I could not stay at school due to lack of concentration so I bought gas and just drove. I bought some CDs and then I got lost in Reading and it was somewhat fun I guess. Then I went back to school for my media class and nobody showed up except for like 8 people, hahahaha. STEVE CLARK was there and he spoke outloud maybe because no one was there I dunno. He got a haircut and I can now see his blueeee eyes. Ohhhh my gosh I sound like a little girl. But it was amazing. Oohhh and he held the door for me twice, THANKS!!!!

OMG today I was almost blinded because rocks/dirt/I don't know what came flying in my window into my eye and I almost crashed. I didn't see anything in my eye but it was all irratated and ouch. So now I'm wearing glasses, shock shock shock. I'm kinda not excited that I am off from school the next two days because now I'll sit around and think too much.

Right now I feel like I might cry or throw up or both because yes I am retarded like that I am worrying about everything. I'm pretty much dying and nothing bad even happened to me so I cannot even imagine how everyone else is. I just want all my friends to go back to normal but that will never happen now. I don't think. Ok I'm gonna go cry now, peace out.