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Hey hey heyyyyyyyyy!! What's shakin? For once, there's a lot going on with me so let's begin, shall we?

I don't think I mentioned this but sometime two weeks ago my mom's aunt came and we all went out to eat. It was like me, my mom, my sister, Olivia, my brother, Vincent Joseph, Judy, my mom's aunt, her brother and his wife. Crazy crazy times with those people, let me tell you...They're kind of embarrassing and weird but they're my family and I love them (especially Livvy!).

Also after school one day me, Erin, and Lindsay were supposed to go to Panera's but Lindsay fell asleep or was "sick" or something, haha, so me and Erin just drove all around and bothered Kim and stuff. What fun. Later Linds and I did go to Panera's and then I got to see her horse at the barn which was neato cheeto. Apprently, OTHER things happened on Friday but I'll get to that later. Oooooh oohhh on Friday I also got my SAT scores and I got 570 verbal (worse than before which was a 590) and 610 (!!!!!!) math (better than before which was a 550). So combined I got a 1200 which makes me very happy and way better than I expected to do. Speaking of college, that Saturday my dad took Chelsie and I to visit Alvernia and it was really nice there. At least I thought so. It's a little on the expensive side but with financial aid and scholarships it wouldn't be too bad. The campus is really nice and the lady that talked to me about their nursing program gave me a lot of information that kinda convinced me to go there so now it's one of my top schools.

That Sunday I worked and then Chelsie and I went to see the Grudge. Um yeah, it wasn't scary except maybe one or two parts that made everybody jump, but mostly everyone in the theater was laughing at the non-scariness. Also, the girl that's supposed to be scary and creepy looked like Mulan (that Disney movie) so Chelsie and I were saying "Mulannnnnnnnnn" all night. Yep, don't waste $7 to see that one.

Ok, here comes my big news from last week which isn't really all that big and seems like a really long time ago. Rachel comes up to me Monday morning and is like "OMG I HAVE TO TELL YOU SOMETHING AND YOU ARE GONNA PISS YOUR PANTS." So I'm thinking that she's gonna tell me something really funny but instead she goes "LB talked to Joe....about you!" and I'm like *heart attack* and Rachel's like "I know!!!" So apparently LB talked to Joe on their bus to CTC and asked him "Does Jess Jennings ever talk about me??" and Joe was like "I don't know". So obviously LB pays that much attention that he knows that Joe is dating Rachel and Rachel and I are friends. What an attention-whore...wanting to know if I talk about him...puhlease. So anyway, he's like telling Joe that he was just wondering since we followed him home from work and visited him at work once and he always sees me everywhere and blah blah blah. Ok...first of all it's what? OCTOBER??? Yeah, all that following stuff was like back in March/April and one time in the beginning of the summer so obviously someone is dwelling on the past a little. Or maybe he was thinking about it all summer...I don't know what to think. So then says something to Joe like how come I like him so much but I never talk to him and how is he ever supposed to get to know me or like me back if I never talk to him. To me, that sounds somewhat good, right? Like he wants me to talk to him or whatever. But...

On Thursday we had to bring in canned food for NHS and it was me, Rachel, Mel, and Joe but there were too many boxes to carry for all of us. So I pick up this one bag and I'm struggling to carry it all and guess who pulls into the parking lot at that exact moment and Joe calls him over to carry a bag (how embarrassing!!). So I had to give him the bag (with no eye contact of course, that's too scary). So he carries the bag in for us and puts it down and we're both like "Thanks." and he's just like "Yep" and left. Then Rachel tells me later that when Joe called him over that LB flicked him off. So isn't that bad? Like he didn't want to do it? Or maybe he was embarrassed...but I'm really confused and I don't know what to do. Like, does he want me to talk to him? Even if he does, it's kinda hard because he's gone like the whole day and stuff. I could ask Rachel to ask Joe to talk to him for me but that just seems kinda lame and immature. Or maybe if Joe could like try to hang out with him in the morning and then I could come and talk...but I'm not the best with words (if you don't believe me ask me and I'll give you an example of my stupid-ness and how I ruin stuff all the time). Like if he was right there and I had the chance to talk I wouldn't know what to say and from what I can tell he probably wouldn't either. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!!!!!! Please help!

Ok, moving on from that...also last Thursday we had to head over to the elementary school to help with their little mock election which was really really fun...I love little kids! Friday was senior dress up day which was like really gay and I didn't do it. Some of the costumes were really funny though and it was good for a laugh but that's about it. On Saturday I went to a few stores to get stuff then Sam and I went to the mall to hang out. Then we rented Jeepers Creepers because it was the night before Halloween and all. That movie wasn't scary really either...just a little creepy at times but pretty much lame. I thought I was going to be more scared than Sam but it seemed the other way around.

This past week kinda sucked. School was lame and boring and service learning ended meaning that gym starts on Monday. I didn't even get to see LB at all which means that I didn't have a chance to talk to him or whatever he wants me to do. I was either too late/early to school or I had a meeting for NHS and was there way too early to see him. Oh, but the one day I got there early and was at my locker putting my books away and I wasn't looking at who was passing by. So I see someone looking at me out of the corner of my eye and I look to see who it is and it was him, but he already passed me and turned around by that time. I also had to work Monday and Wednesday nights right after school until 10 which sucks when I have homework. Tonight I'm supposed to be hanging with Lindsay but I called her and she's at her horse barn so I said I'd try later. Tomorrow I'm visiting Kutztown with Chelsie and then I think we're meeting Linds for lunch at where else, Panera's. I then have to work from 3-11 and Vinny is coming for the weekend. Saturday I'm OFF alllllll day and maybe Vinny and I will go see a movie or something. Sunday is work and then Monday is school (and gym class, tear tear). Hopefully I can convince Rachel to talk to Joe to talk to LB for me and then hopefully something will happen very soon! Or not, :(

I'm gonna run now that this is updated and get my celly phone to call Lindsay again so buh bye!

Smooches, *Me*

P.S. Oh! I forgot to mention that the M.I.A. new girl Lauren has returned to us! Yay, she's a cool kid. Oh oh!!! I also got my hairs chopped (as Lindsay says) and yeah it's OK I guess. Alrighty, bye.