last year's wishes are this year's apologies

So it's only been like a thousand years again. I apologize deeply to anyone that really cares (no one). Nah, actually it's been about 2.25 weeks and a lot of good shit has happened. Nothing bad, yay! At least nothing bad happened directly to me.

Sooo the first whole week that I didn't write was the 2nd week of February. Bio in the afternoon, typed my paper in the library for like 2 hours, then home to do more work. As usual, I need a fabulous break from studying so LMH and I went to visit Mon (working with Trav). I believe this was the night I was craving chocolate and went and and bought this heart truffle thing from the V-Day aisle that was made of dark, milk, and white chocolate. It was fucking fabulous and I TRIED to share it but some people are just too damn non-talkative. Ummm this night was good :)

Chuesday (as the Brits say) was probably as equally fabulous as Monday. Classes all day, Personality sucking at life as usual. Wednesday was glorious. Bio in the afternoon, a bit of slacking off and procrastinating when I got home, then I went out with Hoehn. We went to Park Shitty and I finally bought some new eyebrow thingers. GREEN!!! It's cute. Oh I saw Ryan from Subway, that was cool. Hoehn and I were REALLY bored so we went in Aeropostale, American Eagle, and Hollister (in which I'd never been before) and WOW. Overrated much? No offense if you shop there of course :) After that we went to WM to get some free dinna from Monni and Joshi. I put my new e.b. "stud" in after losing the ball like 29301 times. Eventually Hoehn and I left and went to TH for a tad. Finally home, homework, sleep!

Thursday was just glorious...NOT. I woke up to DRAMA on myspace, wtf. As of now (two weeks later) I'm so over that whole thing and not mad/upset/whatever but I just don't understand why anyone is mad at ME. I'm not involved (thank God for that). Sooo basically that upset me and kinda ruined my day (yes, I know it's not my problem). Anywho my first class was canceled for this day, so I went to school @ 11 only to find out my OTHER class was canceled as well meaning that I only had one class and not for another 1.5 hours. I was VERY relieved because I was in need of a little free association with Lindsay in which I just talk and talk and talk and let it all out, haha. Long story short, we were late getting to ML's class, I had to piss like a racehorse, and when I came back from the pot a cute boy in my class was sitting next to me!! Umm the desks got moved and somehow he ended up at my table which I saved for Lindsay, weird but good :) Sooo the day started out sucking as hard as it could and turned out decent. Oh, I also worked at NH with a know it all girl, blahhh. The end.

Friday was WEIRD. I got another message that followed the drama, but made absolutely no sense. I chose not to respond to it and it bugged me for a few days but I'm over that too. Obviously others aren't, whatev. I was SUPPOSED to work with Mon and Briana this night but I switched with Micah as a favor and I ended up doing a little hw/napping after school. That night I was supposed to do something with Kim but she never called so later I ended up calling LMH and we headed out. No sooner had I picked her up bit Kim called and wanted us to come over for a little. We got to meet some of her friends from Penn State and then we left. The end.

Saturday was a fairly decent day. I went out with my fath in the AM as usual. Later in the afternoon I had to work with Josh, Briana, and the dumbass or the "goober" as PCB calls him, hahaha. It was actually a fun night and we goofed off a lot. I actually got along well with Briana and we had a fun time. Funniest thing ever, hands down, has got to be Briana mistakenly calling the Gym Class Heroes the "Gym Locker Boys"...Josh and I are still laughing at the one and I will continue to do so forever and ever. The next morning I had to work with Heather, Jackie, and Phelps. Home, nothing, "homework", slacking, etc.

The next week I kinda avoided WM as much as I could. It helped a lot that it snowed like mad and I couldn't go anywhere. Ummm Monday was my bio test (97 ow ow), Tuesday was the beginning of the BLIZZARDDDD and I almost crashed into cars in the parking lot at school (for reals yo). Vinny and Amber stayed over at our house for a few nights too since they couldn't drive to Limerick and back every morning and afternoon. Wednesday aka Valentine's Day was a snowwww day! I did absolutely nothing.

Hmmm Thursday was driving to school in the aftermath of the blizz. Lindsay and I were like a thousand minutes late. Also, this day was back to WORK and let me just say it was amazing. Ummm Monica and I had no "tension" whatsoever between us and we actually got along amazingly, laughing harder than we have in a long time at practically everything. At one point in the night we cut out a face of the little Harry Potter and I was sticking it on different faces of girls in the haircut magazines..."you had to be there". Ummmm what else??? OHHH at our most insane moment when we could not stop laughing I looked out front to check for people and none other than KP was standing there in line, WTF!! Oh and KP is the official nickname, the "P" standing for Patrick, and the K standing for well...yeah I don't like using names...Anyway, that was weird and odd and I don't knowwww. On Friday I had Bio and then I had to go RIGHT to work from 2-11!!! It was a longggg night considering Mon and I had to work with Andrew and she was sick. Lindsay came in to visit, but it still wasn't a fab night at all :( After work, Lindsay and I went out driving and talking about whatever. I don't knowwww.

Saturday was a homework day including driving up to Alvernia so Lindsay and I could work on our resources for our I/O Psych class, blahhhhh. That project will kill me before the semester is over for sure. On Sunday I had to open Gayway and it was Phelps' last day!!!! We actually had a good time even though we worked with Andrew. Many funny moments and at one point I had AP on the floor laughing and gasping for air, hahaha. That night LMH and I went to WM so she could get a hair book and then we traveled to Wawa at like midnight to get some fabulous food (hot chocolate!)

I belive the next day, Monday, was the first day of the best week of my life?? Nothing particular happened that made me that happy (or maybe it did subconsciously, haha), I just felt really good or something? I woke up sick but went to volunteering anyway. I FINALLY found out the hospital guy's name, drumroll please? TOM! What a homo name. School was school. Later in the evening LMH and I ventured to WM as usual on Monday evenings to visit Mon and others. I think this was the night Monica dissappeared for like an hour, Briana and I got along sorta, and Lindsay just sat and started over at the juices surveying the "scene" and also kicking me really hard in the shin. When we left, we wrote Mon a little love letter and me being the dumb one that I am at times said "TELL KP I SAID GOODBYE". Ummm turns out she actually told him I said goodbye, but I'll get to that later. Ummm Tuesday was school and that's about it.

On Wedneday I had Bio and then I had to take my mommy to the hairdresser to get her dumb little nails done. I made an appointment for a haircut!! After that my mother and I took a fabulous ride listening to FALL OUT BOY (hahaha) and going to SONIC where I got the wrong fucking drink as usual. Later that night I picked up Rachel and her bro to go to Riv's for food with some people from her church. While sitting with all the conservative little church goers Rachel, Mike E, and I discussed how much "President" Bush sucks and gossiped about people. Being a "Christian" is fun...yeahhh not even gonna go there.

Thursday my cat pissed on my hand and I got a parking ticket for fucking $25 at school (read back a few blogs). I worked with Mon and Heather this night and it was fun I suppose. Monica was all giggly for some reason and kept laughing at me. Turns out when she told KP that I said goodbye on Monday her and Troy ended up talking to him ABOUT ME and apparently there is some interest on his part? Anywhooo I guess that made me a little happy. On Friday I got PAID (WHOOO) and then I worked all night with Mon and Jackie. I didn't even freak out at 10pm! Well maybe a little. Troy was there visiting and we all had a good laugh. Nothing thrilling happened as I was "tricked" (maybe) into believing except maybe there was a little bit more eye contact than usual. Usual = none so I guess that's a good thing. We shall see.

On Sataday I went to the movies with Jen to see Hannibal Rising. Gooood movie but why why why do they have to make the bad guy really hot??? He was like dazzling...and had a REALLY good mouth. Look him if you must, it's worth it haha. OHHH and he had good hair and everything. After the movie we got some (good) food and talked about BOYS (my favorite subject). I told Jen of my little situation (because I might actually have one!) and she made me feel a LOT better about it (as compared at Erin Buynak and her JUDGMENTS). THIS is why I love Jennifer!!

Sunday was god damn fucking SNOW. I worked with Andrew and Josh and it was like HELL. Andrew was being all stalkerish and TOUCHING my shoulder etc. NO GO AWAY midget. Monica came in to visit for a little and I got to go home early (unfortunately it couldn't have been like 4 minutes later, blahhh). Fuck snow.

Yesterday was a LONG day for some reason. I didn't go to volunteering due to my father not leaving before I would've and the snow on the road (haha). School was gay, bio is hilarious and a joke now. I paid my parking fine, went to the library to pick up something, and then HOME and actually did work for a while. Later in the evening I went to see my loves and it was a fabulous time!!!! We made little cut outs of people and streamers and taped them up all over the JUICES. Ummm we were all goofy and thowing things all over the place and I was actually being normal. Then towards the end of my visit there was all this whispering (about me and KP I'm sure this tme) occurring and I got all nervous and ended up being a complete mute and a bitch as well. Why do I have to be the initiator???? Anyway, I think I'll stay away from WM until I have to work on Thursday...I'm embarrassed. Anddd who knows who will come in to get "supplies" on Thursday or whatever...

Ummm today was homosexual. It's Vinny's birthday!! Umm classes were gay and now I'm home for a bit doing absolutely nothing but baking amazing cookies and listening to Fall Out Boy some more (I'm obsessed and I really don't want to be but it's sooo fitting my little mood currently). I haven't even listened to anything else since I got the damn CD like two weeks ago. In about 10 minutes I'm off to go back up to school for my first Personality test...hopefully NOT essay :(

Ok FEELINGS time: Obviously as you can tell I'm back to being OBSESSED with a dumb "boy". I hate it, kind of. And I know I should just relax and take things as they come (ha) but I'm messed up in the head and get SOOO involved in it (and "it" doesn't even exist) and then when it comes down to actually taking action and doing something about it I don't want to and I choke and can't speak. Maybe it's like we're learning in Philosophy...I WANT something but I know when I get it it won't be what I was expecting and then I'll be disappointed. Therefore it's much more exciting to THINK about it, right? I need to stop being such a wuss, basically haha.

P.S. Fergaliciousssss