and you'll never know

So yeah it's been about 9 years and this time I'm serious about interesting things happening...FOR REAL. Ummm I think the last time I wrote was over spring break which feels like months ago even though it was like two weeks ago.

Ummm me and Ho ended up going to Philly...FUN TIMES. On the way there I got my first speeding ticket...congratulations me. Umm we walked around South Street a little and it was absolutely hilarious. As we strolled the sidewalks of shitty Philly we see these two gay guys approaching and in my head I was like "HAHAHAH GAY MEN!" Anyway...they come up to us and the one starts talking like a mile a minute. It went something like this (imagine this in an extremely flamboyant gay man voice if you will): "OH MY GOD! I don't mean to bother you girls but OH MY GOD me and my boyfriend Joseph here (apparently the strong silent type since he didnt even speak but just looked all serious and model-like) went to a show last night at TLA and OH MY GOD I like totally had an asthma attack and we had to go to the hospital and OH MY GOD. So anyway our ride left us here and we like have NO WAY to get home and OH MY GOD!! We waited outside the hospital for like THREE hours and OH MY GOD no one would help us out so now we're like trying to get help. We need to like take a bus home or something and we need like two more dollars OH MY GOD! This sounds really strange I know but look at us. I mean come one, do we look like bums??? I'm wearing Abercrombie!! We're not bums. So if you could like spare us a dollar or something OH MY GOD I would love you forever!!" Something like that. So Ho and I being the gay man lovers that we are donated two dollars to homosexuality. Basically this is the most random thing that has ever happened to me. I don't even care if it was a scam...by far the weirdest thing I've seen on South Street...maybe. I'm sure Ho and I shopped and looked in the poster store, etc, etc. We attempted to find a psychic person (our dream) but we had no luck. We also looked for the Trocadero for future reference (aka April 1st). Ummm home, food, laughing at a funny phone call (cryyyyy), work.

No school allllll week so on Wednesday I did absolutely nothing in the day. At night Lindsay and I decided to go driving somewhere. We ended up in Villanova/Wayne/Route 30...lots of talking about "things" haha. Thursday was more work, etc etc. On Friday I was supposed to be off but I was asked to work and since I'm poor I said yes. 9 to 5 is the probably the worst shift ever. Lindsay and I went to the Cocalico High School Musical...ummm gay? We left halfway through during intermission especially since Smann and her (new boy)friend went without us and blah blah blah. We decided to have food or something...I think there was a period of non speaking for like an hour as we drove aimlessly wasting all my gas. Ummm we finally went to McDonald's in the middle of the night and that was that, the end.

On Saturday I got my hair dyed and cut...too bad you can't even tell I did anything to it except maybe it's a little darker. Ughh I hate paying a lot of money for what I already have. Coffee, coffee, coffee, work. Sunday = MORE WORK and then visiting my lover Monica at WM since I do that practically every Sunday evening now. DAWSON!!!

Ummm the past two weeks seem like FOREVER. I don't know what happened but looking back through my agenda thing it seems like everything happened very long ago. Monday was the first day of spring...ew I hate spring/summer/hotness/grass. Umm Lindsay and I procrastinated and never did our articles for Shakespeare so we spent like 2 hours in the library (ew) typing them up. I wasn't done in time for Psych so I SKIPPED (bad bad bad me). We went to Shakespeare and turned our things in and didn't pay attention. BROC CHED SOUP AT PANERA'S!!! That's basically our life now. Ummm we drove back to school with tears in our eyes due to THEOLOGY. While getting out of the car Lindsay was like "Ahhhh I do NOT want to go to this class. we should skip..." EXACTLY MY THOUGHTS. Fast forward five minutes later and we're perusing maps in Sunoco looking for somewhere FAR AWAY to go. We ended up going south in hope of finding some type of beach/water/amazing place to go but instead we traveled down 95 listening to good music and eventually found some huge ass mall with 85 million stores including IKEA. Lindsay ate MBs while I starved and then we looked at cool shit. It was definitely a good skip day even though I came home and went to bed right away without doing homework.

Tuesday = school + work at WM as usual. ALSO emotional breakdown at approximately 11:59pm. I don't know what's wrong with me seriously. Wednesday was like DEATH. It was like I was having an anxiety attack all day...like I couldn't breathe and my chest felt tight, etc etc. It doesn't help that I drank FOUR cups of coffee in the AM in hopes to suppress my sadness/depression/whatever the fuck is wrong with my head. I was shaking for like seven hours. I almost cried in Theology I think...as usual. Never have I felt this way before in life. Lindsay and I declared Wednesday March 22 as the day everything SLOWED DOWN or something. Usually every day for me feels like two days and everything is loooooong but up until this day it had been going fast. Now everything is slow as fuck again. Ummm after school was over I worked on my little philosophy paper and stuff. Then I met up with Rachita and Jennifer to go to Smann's concert. Fabulous evening making fun of people of people named Nimrod and laughing at the kid playing the bells. We met the (new boy)friend again as well as the (soon to be ex) boyfriend (aka jerk off). Home, bed, write a paper ALL NIGHT, sleep, cry probably.

After Thursday I felt a little relieved since my paper was done with THANK GOD. I need to stop procrastinating. Guess what I did Thursday night? WORK. Friday = school and then apparent boredom. I actually watched movies. Then Lindsay called and asked me to do something for a little We drove around and didn't talk to each other for like one hour. ISSUES. Umm I dropped her off and burst into tears. Then I drove away on the TP (not toilet paper) and then to Reading to spend money on more movies to watch alone. Friday sucked big time.

As did Saturday (a little). We had to go to Mr. Hummel's memorial/celebration of life. It wasn't really a celebration since everyone cried but it was VERY nice and I think it helped a lot. It was looming all week and I knew I didn't want to go but I'm glad it's over with now. Hummel was probably one of the best teachers at our high school and it's really sad he's gone...he'll be missed by A LOT of people. Oh and GOOD JOB to Ashley P for being brave and reading her little speech about Hums! Applebees where we saw a pencil-thin boy and also HARRY POTTER...no one gets that hahahaha. WORK @ night on Saturday :(((((

Sunday was work and then chilling with the Ho. I can't even remember what we did hahaha. Damn what did we do??? Ohhhh we went to new Target in Lancaster and bought cool stuff such as earrings and a new orange wallet and took pictures of BIG BALLS haha. Her radio is also broken which forces us to listen to nothing, static, or our favorite option GANGSTER RAP hahaha. We're getting to know all the songs and all the words which is really really sad. It grows on you...which is also really really really sad. I'm sure we also visited the lovely Matthew at TH where we probably ate chocolate and chatted with Randy the Racist HAHAHA.

Monday = BAD. It started off fabulously. It was a nice sunny day and I was excited to go to school and have a good week after last week's depression/anxiety episodes. So I'm driving along listening to amazing 80s music and suddenly everything is like LAKSJDFJASDFKJASKFJAKLJ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Basically I crashed into the guy in front of my on the front passenger side of my car. I could go into the whole sordid little tale but I've already told it literally a hundred times and I'm sick of telling it again and again. Basically I crashed, the car was undrivable (as opposed to the other guy who just had some bumper issues), I stood on the side of the road with literally all my belongings from my car like a god damn hobo, almost crying because my parents were unreachable, calling Lindsay to come and get me, Lindsay getting PULLED THE FUCK OVER coming to get me godddd, crying for like a thousand hours in Lindsay's car, smelling like air bags (worst smell ever), waiting for a million years for my gay parents who never came home until like 9pm when it happened at like 11:45 am. Yeah umm did I mention Monday was a bad day in the life of me?

So allllll of last week was be depending on other people, mostly Lindsay to drive my ass everywhere. Ummm Tuesday was a sucky day. I felt trapped at school which definitely sucks. Lindsay had to transport me all the time, I felt reallyyyyy bad about it but I did give her some dinero for the week's gas and stuff. Ummm I went home and was prepared to sleep forever but Ho called me and invited me to my favorite place on earth aka WAL MART. We chatting with Mon and Dar and for some reason I was really hyper...which everyone (mainly Lindsay) knows is "the high before the low". Ho and I hung out at my house for little watching gay movies and staring at KU boys on the computer like William and Evan and others. Then Lindsay came to pick me up to go to a comedian up at school. She was pissed at me due to Chelsie saying hi to her, etc etc. The usual. Ummm I about had it with life and I like broke down in Lindsay's car...what a loser I am. I was overwhelmed as usual but the comedian cheered me up a lot haha. Robert PATRICK Kelly...no one else got it. Fake people suck...did I mention that before??? HAHAHAHAHAH HARRY POTTER. Next I stayed over at Lindsay's house and cried on the inside, (haha I'm laughing now about it).

Wednesday was gay as hell...school and then work right way. Die die die. Thursday was bad as well due to having to go into work two fucking hours early and being there for over 9 hours, EWWWWW. I like got really pissed by the end of the night and started throwing things. Oh and my car was TOTALED by the way. So basically I found out I'd have to get a new one very very soon or else depend on rides for life. On Friday morning my mommy, daddy, and I went to look at cars and we found one, THANK GOD. I actually really like it and it was my first choice out of all the ones we looked at. It's a 2002 Pontiac Grand Am and it's SILVER (yay). The idea of getting a newer, "cooler" (than an old man car) car is kinda fun and exciting but then I start to think about WHY I'm getting a new car and I get a little upset. Friday turned out to be a better day though...I finally have a car (as of this week though) and I didn't have to depend on Lindsay for once to shuttle me around. My parents took me to school where I was ALL CAUGHT UP with my Psychology work and then Rachel came to get me and take me home.

Thennnnn, putting all the bad stuff of the week behind me as I've been trying to do, I got ready for a fabulous concert. Lindsay and I went to TLA to see She Wants Revenge (yayyayyayayayayayayyyy!!!). Too bad everyone and their brother decided to be out that night and there was like zero parking except for like ONE space in a $14 parking garage. So anyway the concert was good even though we were 45 minutes. We got to hear my three favorite songs by Nightmare of You (who opened). Ummm Lindsay scared the shit out of my by practically passing out and being dizzy..ahhhh. My life (and probably her's) flashed before my eyes. Candy solved everything and we went back inside. There was like NO ONE there...it was really empty but still very good despite gay tall people in front of us as usual. OHHH and another male to add to my "hottest guys ever viewed by me" list...he was the perfect blend of Bill Nye (hahahah no one knows what this meansssss) and Gerard (!!) and he was just...unbelievably good looking (to me anyway). Umm he disappeared somewhere along the way though :( Anyway...She Wants Revenge is like...indescribable hahaha. The singer...ummmm he's really skinny? And he dances oddly and yeahhh they're good. After fabulous music we ate fabulous food at Jim's and then headed home really really late after viewing some fucked up disgusting flyer about sex and moustaches this guy with an enormous mohawk handed us. Ew.

Saturday = nada then preparing for ANOTHER concert...I double booked ahhhh but it was fun. Ho and I listened to gangster music again which was hilarious and repetitive. We had a whole new musical experience at the Trocadero where I've never been before...very cool. We saw Stellastarr* (yayyyy!!) and it was excellent...better than Friday night. I took a really good picture...I'm very proud of it. Amazing evening overall including Chelsie (and not me) forgettig her ticket twice, hahahahaha. Ummm definitely/hopefully going back there to see Action Action, yay.

Yesterday I had to work at Denver and it was annoying as usual, I hate it there. It's definitely time for a new job. NAP NAP NAP (yay). Later in the evening, well rested, Lindsay and I were bored so we went in search of sugar aka SONIC hahaa. Umm my pineapple milkshake had peices of M&M's in it hahahaha. We chatted about funny things like immature boys and strange things and stuff like that. We decided to visit Mon at Suckmart and it was just a BLAST. Home, sleep, etc.

Today I started volunteering at the hospital again for college, yuckoooo even though I love it. I went to school and things went really well overall. I got a 100 on my one Psych paper and my teacher told me to stay after class so she could tell me that she NEVER gives 100s but that she couldn't find anything wrong with my paper. I'm not one to brag but ummm I felt extremely proud, especially since psych is my major now. Umm Shakespeare was retarde because of stupid people named after copper coins and other named after cartoon characters. Sadly the one that LOOKS like a cartoon character wasn't there, sniffle sniffle. During our break Lindsay and I had a fabulous lunch (that I didn't have to pay for) and then we went to Theology which was actually tolerable! GV still ignored me though, even after he pointed out once again that he doesn't have favorites and then proceeds to call on every single person in the room except me...whatever Gerald. (I'm still waiting for the license plate GSD...)

Ummm everything is looking up this week. School is good, I only work three days, I'm getting a new car in two days, I get paid on Friday, etc etc. If anyone is freeeeee on Thursday evening or Saturday let me know because I am OFF from work. It's a rare occurrence so take advantage. BYE.