it never did no harm

So I ended up going out driving around with Lindsay. Nothing exciting happened and it was boring I guess. Ummm she saw the NR at TH today and that's about it.

At the current moment I feel like a retard (what else is new?). Seriously, most of the things that I think about myself are true. Like I just talked to Chelsie and she blabbed on and on about her secret little crush for over an hour. Then she asks me to be honest and tell her if she's being annoying. So I flat out tell her what I think is the truth...that I don't mind listening but that it's annoying that I know that I'd never be able to do that to her. And WOW WHAT A SHOCKER she's like "Right. Anyway..." and continues on and later attempts to ask me "what's new with me"...whatever. Suddenly it's late and she has to go and she makes a comment something like "Oh wow I went a little overboard" and then says "Oh God, don't ever do that to me."

HELLO, I just said that.

Wow I could go on for days about many things related to this like how I try to limit talking about certain things because I know nobody cares and stuff...but hey it's true so I might as well just continue keeping a lot of things to myself. It's kind of funny that there's a lot of stuff my friends don't know about me...they just think they know things but they really don't.

God, don't mind me to day I was just in a pissy mood tonight and I try really hard to just deal with everybody taking advantage of me but sometimes I just hate it. I AM TOO NICE, I think. I let everyone walk all over me. Like I'm only cool enough when people are bored and I'm good to have around in case you need to spout off for an hour about something retarded, especially when I never do it back, right???????