i tend to lose control

I wanted to write in here all week but I kept forgetting. This week was kinda busy and I can't really remember what I did each night.

Oh ohhhh, on Sunday I actually drove to Philly and we didn't die! Amazing. I definitely think I'll be able to handle it when the time comes for me to venture out alone. After that me and Linds went to Wally World and sized blowers. We laughed really hard and people stared at us. Don't even ask.

On Monday I worked and Linds came to visit and we made her make her own sandwich (gloves and all) and it was kinda hilarious. On Tuesday I can't really remember much except that I talked to "John" on the phone and I almost died. Lindsay made me call and hang up like 65 million times and just like always he did the whole call back twice with a ten minute interval between each call. So predictable. I finally answered and I couldn't even talk...now I know what the "Pkewwww" (blur) feels like. I hope he doens't know who I am, scaryyyyy.

I can't remember much of Wednesday...in flex I went to gym with my bestest buddies (minus Lindsay) and we played badminton with the kid who can't read. That's a good game if you need to release anger, wow. I went to Wal-Mart or something (I'm starting to become a Wal-Mart junkie again) and got some medicine or something. I lost my blue notebook and almost cried because it has all my notes for the rest of the year in it and I couldn't do my assignments that were due Thursday. I found it in my locker (imagine that). After youth group I didn't feel like going home and I was just driving around and I don't know why but I had some sort of break down and I cried a lot, tear tear. It was really odd and scary and yeah.

My allergies were extremely bad this week but I tried to ignore the fact that I felt like crap and that I felt like I was in a different world. So Thursday was pretty much the worst day of my life. I woke up and I actually felt better than all the other days sick-wise. That changed during first block...I guess since I got different medicine that's like the cheap equivalent to Benadryl and not the allergy and sinus stuff my sinuses were horrible. My head felt...I can't even describe it. It was like having a fever times a million with a migraine on top of it. I didn't even talk all morning, so that should've told you people something. My nose was completely stuffed and my face felt like it as on fire. Seriously. Then in preschool Kyle wasn't there (we didn't get to hear G-Unit) so I just had Jenna and she was a lot worse than usual so that didn't help.

When I went to Job Shadowing I took my medicine and I was feeling really really good until I got back to school where I had a breakdown. I didn't want to hear anybody talk about anything and I got pissed off at something dumb...just a little moody I guess. Sorry to anybody that I was a bitch to...I basically felt like screaming SHUT UP to everyone. Plus, we heard some bad news about Mr. Hummel and it's really sad.

After school Smann came over and looked at yearbooks while I took a nap, haha. I felt a lot better after I got out of school. We went to the track meet and it was fun like always. Mrs. Means is so funny...she makes fun of everybody and it's great. Some guy stole like 20 napkins from us and he kept coming back to ask questions and we just laughed at him. After that me and Lindsay drove around and "got lost" or something.

We then decided that it wasn't worth going to school tomorrow and talked about skipping...we're such REBELS. We called Ho and she refused to take part and it was kinda late to call anybody else so we just went home. So...

TODAY I SKIPPED SCHOOL IT WAS AWESOME, haha not really. I slept til like 9:30 and then I went to Job Shadowing for an hour. Then I picked Linds up (her mommy let her skip too, yay) and we went to Panera's and then got some ice cream. We just drove around and listening to music and stuff...so much better than being in gay school.

Tonight I just went to get my paycheck and then I had to get some stuff for my mother and uncle. It's kinda cold outside. I saw some gangstas crossing the street in Denver and it looks like they were headed to that house near the alley...ya know the one where they ask where J Weave is in their ghetto-speak and the porch monkies across the street hear. Hahaha...I think this one kid that chews tobacco was there...he looked at (of courseeeee, ew).

I'm pretty much bored out of my mind right now. I have all this stuff that I *could* do but I don't feel like it, nope nope nope. I can't stop coughing (and it's not from smoking anything, goshhhhhh). I know I always bring stupid stuff up again and again but I am just curious if anyone can tell me why I'm not just not as important as other things.

Random thought...Erin Buynak needs to let me come see House of Wax at the Ephrata theater for freeeeeeeeee, k???? I want to see it because it's all they ever talk about on the internet and on TV and I'm curious. So yeah...Erin, we should all go see it. No Smann though, she's too afraid, haha.

I'm leaving now I think.

Peace, love, and...being sick :( *Me*