it's better off this way

Um this weekend kinda rocked in one sense and sucked in another. If I remember correctly Friday was a funny day at school. After school I took the kiddies home and then went home myself for a little. I went to the bank and got money and then I went shopping, yay. I got two CDs and a book and I also tried to apply for some jobs. But then today I found out that practically everyone at Suckway wishes for me to stay (even though they think I'm the world's biggest pothead) so I guess if I don't find another job I'll stay. That makes me sad yet happy at the same time.

When I got home I called Lindsay and she came and picked me up. I really don't remember what we did because it feels like a long time ago. I think we drove around (for real, not just in Denver) and got lost and wound up like half an hour away from home. Then we headed for Denver and took a few spins and didn't see anything interesting. We did talk about some funny shit though like senior pictures and I laughed the hardest I think I've ever laughed...I even cried. After that we got kinda thirsty so we headed to Wally World. We couldn't stop laughing and everything seemed to be funny, especially these ghetto whigger (well two of them) guys that we saw in there. One of them looked like Michael Jackson. We tried to avoid them but they were everywhere and we couldn't stop laughing just like they couldn't stop staring. We found the drinks but sadly they were right near the end of the aisle were the thugs were and we didn't notice at first so we were about 10 feet away from them, ew. We went in a different line from them and we got done first somehow and left. Lindsay asked me if they were still looking so I turned around and sure enough they were like standing in a line looking right at us...ahhh creepy. They saw me look and they were yelling "BYE!!!!!" so as soon as were around the corner we started running so they wouldn't catch us. We hopped in my sexy old man car and purposely went past the door to see if they were there and they were. I told Lindsay I'd blow the horn at them if we saw them but I got scared so she did it. They yelled stuff and waved but we couldn't hear them. We thought maybe they'd follow us back to good old Denver but they probably had to get back to their "cribs" YO.

Lindsay spent the night and we watched our favorite show Mr. Roger's Neighborhood. That is the queerest thing ever shown to children. It's just wrong. Mr. R was visiting the dentist, Dr. "Death" and got his horse teeth cleaned. They were all nasty and black and we got close up shots. Sick. The dentist was this gay fag that told Mr. R to think of happy things and Mr. R SO looked at the dentist's crotch when he said it. Wow...that show is perverted. Seriously...the mail man's name is Mr. McFeely (if that's how you spell it) and he delivers special packages to Mr. Rogers. Yeah, I bet he does.

On Saturday morning we watched sexy Braddy Pitty talk in a cool Irish accent and then Lindsay had to go to work. I talked to Ho on the internet and we made little KOP plans with her lover. What fun, it was raining and my hair got messed up really bad and that made me mad. Then I got pissed off/annoyed/upset for some reason that nobody else understands. It just made the day really bad. I didn't even talk the whole time because I was just thinking a lot and I wanted to just go home and cry. I was going to until my stupid mother called and made me not wanna go home. So I sucked it up and later I was normal again.

We picked Lindsay up on the way home and tried to think of something to do. We visited Zac's house briefly before getting some Chinese food. Then on the way home we drove by the 10th grader's house and Zac yelled out the window. Zac, Lindsay, and I convinced Chelsie to go back past so we could see them and yell stuff and be weird so we did and then Chelsie's car hit bottom so we left. It was really funny nonetheless. When we got back to my house she was missing part of this fake light thing so we just had to go back and look for it. It was so funnnnnnnnnnnnnnny. We parked in the alley across the street and made Zac run across and say "Um, I think I left part of my car here...". Classic. I shouldn't have been such a nerd and I should've actually went near the house because that would've been cool. After that the young one had to be home so me, Chels, and Linds went to get Lindsay's other car and we drove around in the pouring rain and Lindsay was being crazy and went by certain porches literally like 10 times. All I have to say is that I hope nobody knows who I am. Haha.

After all the excitement of the last two days I had to come home and sleep. I seriously went to bed before 11 which is extremely rare for me. Today I was kinda in a bad mood again but work cheered me up. I was such a slacker...sorry Ash! After work I came home and Sam wanted me to go to Wally World with her...my mom needed stuff so I had to buy dumb bread there. Nothing exciting happened to us except that I saw this loser kid with red hair. I came home and thought I'd do my homework but I didn't. I ate dinner and talked to Chelso on here and then I went back to Wally World with my father and got gas and stuff.

Now I've been home for a long time and I haven't done my homework and I really should but I'm being a depressed loser again. It's really bothering me lately...like yesterday afternoon I was seriously scaring myself because all I wanted to do was come home and lay down and just cry. That is not even me at all. I try to avoid talking about it to people in person because I'd probably just break down and start crying like I always do if I try to talk to people about anything. Nobody really gets it I don't think.

So um this week looks busy I guess. The first three days are gonna be weird with all that testing stuff...we have all our classes twice which really isn't good. I have to work tomorrow night, Tuesday night is stupid study hours, Wednesday is study hours after school (no kiddies, tear tear), Thursday is more study hours (can you tell I'm a procrastinator squeezing them all in at the last second), and Friday is more work. Saturday is a college thing in the day and at night I don't know what's up yet. I'm gonna be wiped out again this week. I may skip youth group again to have a night that I can just relax.

This is definitely really too long so I'm just gonna go now and be tired while I try to do Stats that was due a week ago. Coolness bye.

Smooches, *Me*

Or if you work at Suckway you can just call me MJ ;)