there's so much i need to say to you

Eh...today started out really good then it slowly got worse and worse. We had gay homeroom for over an hour and half this morning because the juniors have testing. It really wasn't that bad after I saw the Killers' video on MTV, yay! But it sucked because I was gonna do my homework but I forgot my entire notebook. What a dumbass. So then I went to Stats and it flew by and guess what I understand it, whoo. Then it was Preschool and we had the SAME FREAKING KIDS AS LAST WEEK. So I had to help Spawn of Satan and Danny hand out their Valentines to each kid in the class and it took forever. That girl...seriously. She wasn't that bad today but I was just stressed because we were the last ones done. I thought they'd be able to read the cards but noooo.

My usual hour at the hospital was only a half an hour today. That was cool. Plus there were Reese's peanut butter cups and that was awesome. Ok, so then I went to lunch and our whole table was filled with people and I don't know but I couldn't handle it. Then some people who think they're way cooler than me ticked me off just a tad. I know I make fun of people and talk about people too and it's bad but sometimes you have to know when to just shut the fuck up. I know when these little children read this they'll get mad but seriously, shut up. I guess I'm just being a jealous bitch but it doesn't help when it's like I'm not good enough to talk to and when I say anything people just stare at me. I don't know if it's because of how late in the day it was or because I was pissed off but I couldn't concentrate in Physics and I just sat there thinking the whole time. I didn't pay attention to anything. I did good on my quiz from last week though so that made me happy. I just need to start doing the homework for that class and my grade should be fine.

So after lunch I guess I was having a bad day. I'm better now...I actually needed to go to work to get away from dumb school. But even there I had to hear some of it. I can handle it in small doses. I guess I just needed to laugh and nobody was in a laughing mood today except Rachel, my Valentine, haha.

Tomorrow should be better. Rachel got out of her bandie homeroom and is gonna come hang with me and Amber for the rest of the year, yay. I don't have to work either, yesssss. I'll try to be my normal happy self tomorrow but only if people act NORMAL and talk about normal things for just one day. That's all I ask. I know I'm being a hypocrite and I'm sorry but I'm getting sick of it. Just watch in like two days I'll be back to yakking away.

But anyway, just a quick comment...I'm proud of myself. I'm being very brave lately (sorta). Haha I'm such a nerd, making up all this dumb stuff up in my head. I need to stop thinking so much. One last thing: tomorrow WILL be a good day or else.

Smooches, *Me*